Saturday, January 28, 2006

...

Shouldn't have attended the dinner yesterday... or should I say a gathering of all the so-called relatives of mine ... A dinner that I was forced to attend. During the dinner, someone mentioned about something I "did wrong". Till this morning, I was questioned about it. I did not do it but why no one believe me ... I can't control what other people want to say about me .... they can say anything ... but why my own family don't believe me??? They always say that if I behave and not doing anything wrong, there is no reason other people will say anything about me ... But what does it mean? Does it mean to always do what they and other people expect me to do??? Why can't I just do what I want? Why can't I have a say about my own life?
Since I can remember, whatever I do is considered wrong, whatever I say is wrong, ...etc. Each time something goes wrong, the blame goes to me. Unless I stop arguing and insisting that it is not my fault, no one will let it go. If I keep arguing and insisting that it is not my fault ... no one in the family will bother to even talk to me at all. How long will this keep going? As long as I live???

Thursday, January 26, 2006

This is so RiDiCuLoUs!!

Somewhere near B.Baru, was stopped by a traffic officer claiming that I didn't stop my car at the traffic light. Trying to accuse me to get some $$$!!! Wasted my precious 15-20mins' time entertaining this, insisted I never did any traffic offence! This is way too ridiculous! Why was the car behind me (going to the same direction from the same traffic light/turning) was not stopped?? Was it because small Kancil was thought would be easy to be bullied??!! Or was it because it's near CNY and chinese are supposed to be extra $$$ and generous enough to spend on additional "things"??!! This whole ridiculous scenerio was ended up being told that he was going to write down my details and the summon will be sent to my house and asked me "So, macam mana?"!!!! After my previous minutes spent, finally ... hinting for $$$!! Pay? Of course NOT!! Why should I? First of all, I didn't do anything wrong. Secondly, he wasted my previous time!! As there was no response from me on $$, he kept mentioning about writing the details and the summons. Accordingly, asked him to provide me a copy of what he "would be writing" and the reference number and told him I would be referring to the traffic dept as I'm sure I did not do anything wrong. Unexpectedly, he returned my ID and license and said "OK. Kali ini kita bagi chance" and let me go. BUT WHAT CHANCE?? I never did anything wrong in the first place... This is way too ridiculous!!

Monday, January 16, 2006

Am I short?

Am I really that short?
Just today, again my brother laughed at me and said that I'm SHORT! How sad ... In fact, I'm the shortest in the family ... BUT it's too late ... it's all too late ... I can never be any taller ... but to remain as the shortest in the family forever ...

Sunday, January 15, 2006

Facts ...

Some interesting and unusual facts :

  • More Monopoly money is printed yearly than real money throughout the world.
  • Penguins are not found in the North Pole
  • People photocopying their buttocks are the cause of 23% of all photocopier errors worldwide.
  • A dentist invented the Electric Chair.
  • Rudolf the Red-nosed reindeer was actually created as a promotional figure for Montgommery Wards department stores.
  • A cockroach can live nine days without its head before it starves to death.
  • Walt Disney got the idea for Mickey Mouse from watching mice play in a garage, where he was forced to work, because he could not afford to rent an art studio.
  • About 100 people choke to death on ballpoint pens each year.
  • About a third of all Americans flush the toilet while they're still sitting on it.
  • Alexander Graham Bell's wife and mother were both deaf .
  • Cockroaches break wind every 15 minutes.
  • Fish scales are an ingredient in most lipsticks.
  • "Happy Birthday" was the first song to be performed in outer space, sung by the Apollo IX astronauts on March 8, 1969.
  • "Ough" can be pronounced in eight different ways. The following sentence contains them all: "A rough-coated, dough-faced ploughman strode through the streets of Scarborough, coughing and hiccoughing thoughtfully.
  • "The sixth sick sheik's sixth sheep's sick" is said to be the toughest tongue twister in English.
  • 25% of a human's bones are in its feet.
  • 40% of McDonald's profits come from the sales of Happy Meals.
  • 80% of animals on earth are insects.
  • By raising your legs slowly and lying on your back, you cannot sink into quicksand
  • t takes more calories to eat a piece of celery than the celery has in it to begin with.
  • Chewing gum while peeling onions will keep you from crying.
  • A bibliophile is a collector of rare books. A bibliopole is a seller of rare books.
  • A beaver's teeth never stop growing.
  • A blue whales heart only beats nine times per minute.
  • A butterfly can look at you through 12,000 eyes.
  • A chef's hat is tall and balloons at the top so as to counteract the intense heat in the kitchen. The unique shape allows air to circulate around the scalp, keeping the head cool.
  • A cluster of bananas is called a hand and consists of 10 to 20 bananas, which are known as fingers.
  • A fish's memory span is 3 seconds.

Friday, January 13, 2006

现在,很想见你

多么想很开心有个梦
这个梦日日夜夜在心中
我撑开一把雨伞展示我的勇敢
陪你走过热闹街头
你突然握着了我的手
你一定感觉到我的颤抖
在耳边小声说话
说你心中的话
原来这是心有灵犀一点通

现在很想见你
要打电话给你
可是我的勇敢只在我梦里
和你去看电影
一起唱KTV
我的世界就更明亮
现在很想见你
如果你会答应
我会试着实现梦里的情景
拥抱你在街上
不怕别人眼光
你是我永远的梦想


simple melody, simpe lyric but nice chorus! Been listening again and again and yet listening ...

Thursday, January 12, 2006

Work to live? Or live to work?

Back home finally ...

Extremely tired today, both mentally and physically. Been experiencing extreme headache lately... felt as if the head was going to explode anytime ... tiring life!

Having no worklife balance ... must do something about it ! Wonder which path am I on? A job or a career? Something that fulfills my financial needs or a cohesive linkage of doing things I like and fit with my lifestyle?

“What is the good in life if its chief element, and that which must always be its chief element, is odious? No, the only true economy is to arrange so that your daily labour shall be itself a joy.”

~Edward Carpenter~

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

中國新“百家姓”出爐

Was suddenly asked by my sis if I know what is the position of our surname in the list of surnames in China ... And of course ... as expected, I DUNNO!


新順序是:李,王,張,劉,陳,楊,黃,趙,周,吳,徐,孫,朱,馬,胡,郭,林,何,高,梁,鄭,羅,宋,謝,唐,韓,曹,許,鄧,蕭,馮,曾,程,蔡,彭,潘,袁,於,董,余,蘇,葉,呂,魏,蔣,田,杜,丁,沈,姜,范,江,傅,鐘,盧,汪,戴,崔,任,陸,廖,姚,方,金,邱,夏,譚,韋,賈,鄒,石,熊,孟,秦,閻,薛,侯,雷,白,龍,段,郝,孔,邵,史,毛,常,萬,顧,賴,武,康,賀,嚴,尹,錢,施,牛,洪,龔。
Source: My sis (wonder where she got this from)

Now I know...19th!! But does it matter ??

Sunday, January 08, 2006

Birthday Wish of the Year

Birthday wish(es) of the year:

1. Can "live" my life.
2. Get out of this tiring life
3. Can stop doing what other people want me to do and can do whatever I want to do.
4. Not letting my family to keep on discouraging me in everything I do.
5. Can stop caring what other ppl think or say.
5. Live Longer
6. ... et cetera

How greedy!!

Saturday, January 07, 2006

Why ...

Why do my sis just has to argue with me all the time ...

Why do they always direct me to do this and do that ...

Why must I do whatever they want me to do ...

Why can't I do what I want ...

Who am I living my life for ???

McD trip again!!

Haih ... McD trip again ... seems like I'm easy to be bullied. Just got home an hour ago and now am asked to go out again to buy food for them ... Physically and mentally tired yet have to go out to buy for them ... What life is this ....

Added to that, am going back to office to take something. YES! After 1am!!! This is not the 1st time. Anyway, the office is opened 24hrs a day... But wonder how did I actually leave my handphone and purse in the office!! With my licence and IC in my purse, hopefully there isn't any police block at this hour ...

Thursday, January 05, 2006

Meaningful and True

Paradox of Our Times
我们这个时代的尴尬


Today we have bigger houses and smaller families; more conveniences, but less time;

我们居住的房屋越来越宽敞,家庭却越来越小型化;可以享受的生活便利日益增多,属于自己的时间却日趋减少;


we have more degrees, but less common sense; more knowledge, but less judgment;

我们获得了一张又一张学位证书,却愈加频繁地陷入对常识的茫然中;我们广泛地涉猎各类知识,却越来越缺乏对于外界事物的准确把握和判断;


We have more experts, but more problems; more medicine, but less wellness.

我们的专家越来越多,问题却也日渐增加;药物越吃越多,健康却每况愈下。


We spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get to angry too quickly, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too often, and pray too seldom.

我们花钱太疯,笑容太少,开车太快,怒气太盛,熬夜太晚,起身太累,文章读得太少,电视看得太勤,祷告做得太少。


We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too little and lie too often.

我们不断聚敛物质财富,却逐渐丢失了自我价值。我们的话语太多,真爱太少,谎言泛滥。


We‘ve learned how to make a living, but not a life; we’ve added years to life, not life to years.

我们掌握了谋生手段,却不懂得生活真谛;我们让年华付诸流水,却不曾将生命倾注其中。


We have taller buildings, but shorter tempers; wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints.

我们的住房越来越好,脾气却越来越糟;我们行驶的道路越来越宽阔,眼光却越来越狭隘。


We spend more, but have less; we buy more, but enjoy it less.

我们付出很多,可获得的很少;我们购买了很多,可从中得到的乐趣却很少。


We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet the new neighbour.

我们能够往返于地球与月球之间却不乐于穿过马路向新邻居问好。


We've conquered outer space, but not inner space. We've split the atom, but not our prejudice;

我们可以征服外部空间,却慑于走进内心世界。我们可以击碎原子,却不能突破思想偏见;


we write more, but learn less; plan more, but accomplish less.

我们写得很多,可学到的很少;计划很多,可完成的很少。


We've learned to rush, but not to wait; we have higher incomes, but lower morals.

我们学会了追赶时间,却没学会耐心等待;我们拥有的财富越来越多,道德品质却日益沦丧。


We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies, but have less communication. We are long on quantity, but short on quality.

我们生产更多的电脑用于存储更多的信息和制造更多的拷贝,而相互间的交流与沟通却越来越少。我们拥有的是数量,缺乏的是质量。


These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion; tall men and short character; steep profits and shallow relationships.

这是一个快餐食品和消化迟缓相伴的时代;一个体格高大和性格病态并存的时代;一个追名逐利和人情冷漠相生的时代。


More leisure and less fun; more kinds of food, but less nutrition; two incomes, but more divorce; fancier houses, but broken homes.

我们的闲暇多了,乐趣却少了;食品种类多了,营养却少了;双薪家庭增加了,离婚率也激升了;居室的装修华丽了,家庭却残缺破碎了。


That’s why I propose, that as of today, you do not keep anything for a special occasion, because every day that you live is a special occasion.

因此我奉劝大家,在当今这个时代,不必为某个特别时刻保留什么,因为我们生活的每一天都是特别的。


Search for knowledge, read more, sit on your front porch and admire the view without paying attention to your needs.

探索知识,遨游书海,坐在门廊前欣赏眼前的景色,把所有烦恼抛在脑后。


Spend more time with your family and friends, eat your favorite foods, and visit the places you love.

留出更多的时间与家人和朋友一起分享,吃遍天下美食,游遍你心中想往的名山大川。

Life is a chain of moment of enjoyment, not only about survival.

生命是由快乐时光组成的一个链条,而绝不仅仅是一种生命的存在。

Use your crystal goblets. Do not save your best perfume, and use it every time you feel you want it.

举起你那水晶酒杯开怀畅饮吧,不要吝惜你最好的香水,只要想用就尽情地用吧。


Remove from your vocabulary phrases like “one of these days” and “someday”. Let’s write that letter we thought of writing “one of these days”.

将“今后某一天”这类的话语从你的词汇中删除,现在就把你想在“今后某一天”写的信件写了寄走。


Let’s tell our families and friends how much we love them. Do not delay anything that adds laughter and joy to your life.

不要把对家人和朋友的爱深藏心中,大胆地告诉他们。对于能给你的生命增添快乐的事情,不要押后拖延。


Every day, every hour, and every minute is special. And you don’t know if it will be your last.

每一天,每一小时,每一分钟都是特别的。你怎么知道这会不会是你的最后一刻。

This is quite true ...

What a ...

Just can't believe it ... How could it be ... none of my family members, except me and my sis in Kuching remembers my brother's birthday ... How could they !! It's the big day ... he's turned 14 !! Don't mind if no one remembers mine (most likely only my brother and my sis in Kuching do) but how could they not remember his!!

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

~~ My Cutest Brother's Birthday !! ~~

4th JANUARY --- My Cutest Brother's Birthday!! Hehe..of coz he is the cut"est"... I have only one ... no other brother to compared with. Also, he claims himself to be the cutest somemore ... cannot tahan him. The other day, teased him, said to exchange presents... and Today, asked what he wants as present, he said nothing and added saying that even if he told me, I wouldn't buy ... haih ... know what he meant ... a mobile with camera but I can't afford to buy such present. Will be digging my own grave if I buy him one coz next time he would ask for a 3G phone.

Dunno what to do ...

Monday, January 02, 2006

First Day of 2006

First day of the year and I have slept most of the day... spent 2/3 of the day sleeping. Been so headache since coming back from BBQ at friend's place. Beer, wine, mixing with other hard liqour.... it must have been the drinks. Again, friends tried to make me drunk, not fully successful though ;p Don't really feel anything and was still able to drive home after that ... and them ... continuosly vomitting like crazy... Well, they just love drinking. But it's always good to gather with friends once in a while.

Seeing friend's photos taken in UK and Rome really made me feel like leaving everything behind ... jobs ... work ... family and go travelling ... It's definitely gonna be awesome to visit those nice, amazing and historical places of the world. But again, I don't have the luxury for that. Recently, a friend decided to quit the job and asked me to join her backpacking in Europe. But with all the commitments and responsibilities, I just can't. Dream is dream ; reality is reality.

So surprised to receive a bday e-card today. Surprised not because it's received a few days earlier but it's from a friend whom I have lost contact with since Form 5. Just can't believe it as that was really really long time ago. This friend must have gotten my email from the reunion dinner invitation list. There is this school reunion dinner early Feb which I don't feel like attending. No reason to attend as few close friends are not attending.

Took Panadol yet it doesn't seem working...headache still, not sleepy though ... How am I gonna sleep tonite ...

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